Wednesday, June 27, 2012

The Age of Innocence

I am running through the tall grass on the highway meridian.  I think- I am the first and only person to walk here. On the ground I have stepped on, it is virgin territory. It is pure. I am pure. I am uncluttered.  I smile; I let the sun warm my skin. I like that very much.  I am real. I am free. I am unique.  I am growth personified.  Like a blade of grass in a field of grass. I am singular and I am part of a greater whole. 

I love
I love everyone and everything.
I talk with G-d and G-d hears me.  I am not alone…ever. I can ….do, be, do, be

I trust.
I trust myself. I know myself, I know my thoughts
I have thoughts.  My thoughts are unique to me.

I trust others…implicitly.  I am not afraid of others
I trust others and I trust G-d.
I am not afraid

I am not afraid of what others think of me
I don’t second guess me or others

I smile freely
I love what I am doing in the moment and I love everyone
I love G-d

If someone is upset
If someone is upset at me
It has nothing to do with me
I would not upset anyone…intentionally

If I am wrong, I’m sorry
And if I am will pass

I am in a wood near a stream, looking for salamanders. I am an explorer.  My eyes and ears are my tools. I am in the shade of the green canopy by the little stream watching the water rush around the rocks. I love the way the rocks look so clean in the clear rushing water. I collect the rocks. This one is special. As I am special.

I sing..all the time,
By Myself
With my friends
With G-d

I dance too
I am happy

I try my best in everything
And if I fail, I just fail a little because I tried my best and therefore I succeeded in what I set out to do…my best
I try again.

I consider others…
Can I help
How can I help
What do they need
Can I get it, do it, be it?

I climbed up the ditch with my homemade bow and arrow, searching for wild boar.  There are no wild boar. But that doesn't matter.  I am still searching, hunting...wild boar

Do I know the truth
Do I know the truth about me?
Do I see myself?
Can I assess myself with honesty
Do I strive for TRUTH
Do I strive for Truth and Kindness

This is the Age of Innocence

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Growing Up in the Bronx

My childhood friend Harriet Schwartz,, lived in the Sedgwick Projects in the same building as I did.  She encapsulates so well many of my Bronx experiences growing up there.  It was special.  Every Bronxite knows that and as she mentions- not in hindsight.  Mamish! It was special.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Dov Ber -Go Viter!
We too have been charged...

For Chanukah my kids gave me the book, Out of the Depths:The Story of a Child of Buchenwald who Returned Home At Last. By Chief Rabbi Israel Meir Lau.  The last paragraph of the book repeated the theme that appeared throughout-the continuation of the Jewish people.

I came to Lakewood for the pidyon haben of my grandson, Dov Ber. (See picture) He was redeemed as commanded in the Torah.

Upon completing the Memoirs of Chief Rabbi Israel Meir Lau who emerged like a phoenix from the ashes of Buchenwald concentration camp, it seemed so right to be here with my children, and newest grandchild and my son in law's extended family (only) 40 of which were present at the seudah, the meal which accompanies the redemption ceremony; a real-life-time tangible continuation of the budding remnant of our people. As Rabbi Lau points out (quoting Mayor Ed Koch) that even those who did not experience the Holocaust were redeemed because had we been in Europe during the war, we would surely experience / witness its horrors. and even if we would have survived our psyches would surely have been wounded and filled with images too strong too forget. And although Rabbi Lau was only 8 years old upon liberation from Buchenwald, he and his brother Naphtali were charged by their father with the continuation of the family (Rabbinic) line.

I too feel so charged, and thank G-d have been blessed with 4 grandchildren far. As Rabbi Lau also points out while quoting an army offcer - Jews can only move forward. Go Viter..!


Thursday, August 11, 2011


One Word By Abie Rotenberg

With but one word, as time commenced, He bade the world “begin”
A universe of endless space, both outward, and within.
With but one thought, He granted life, the spark to stir the mind.
And to man, above all else, a soul indeed divine.

With but one Torah would He sketch a path on which to stride.
It dawned with cool refreshing springs to quench our thirst inside.
With but one people would He choose his Torah to impart.
Exalted by the ancestry that forged that noble bond.

With but one land, did He see fit, his presence to bestow.
A covenant with Israel, in sanctity, alone.
With but one tribe would He implant the gift of royalty.
In years gone by and days to come, to rule in majesty.

With but one glance He sees and knows, what was and is to be.
The thoughts and dreams of all mankind, their fate and destiny.
With but one word He can and will, return us to our land.
And how his love was always there, we then will understand.
Ani maamin, be’emunah sheleima.

With but one glance He sees and knows, what was and is to be.
The thoughts and dreams of all mankind, of fate and destiny.
With but one word He can and will, return us to our land.
And how his love was always there, we then will understand.
And how his love was always there, we then will understand.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Daled Amos: Melanie Phillips On The World Turned Upside Down

Melanie Phillips has become my new heroine; My new Oriana Fallaci.
Daled Amos: Melanie Phillips On The World Turned Upside Down: "Melanie Phillips addresses the world of no reason that we live in today--and she is not limiting herself only to the issue of Israel. Liste..."

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Did I Mention I Lost 90 Pounds?

Did I have help?  -Yes I did.  Someone such as myself could not suddenly find the discipline to stop eating the way I have been eating for the last many decades without a major interruption into my habitual non- stop /grazing /gorging of food.  Did I really want to stop the insanity surrounding my relationship with food?  Yes, I finally became so disgusted with myself and knew that, on my own I would continue to get larger and bigger and probably die of any one of a number of things associated with obesity.  One day I looked in a mirror and saw Jabba the Hut – that large lump of wrinkly misshapen fat character in the Star Wars and said to myself that is so disgusting.  And that is when Hashem sent me a shaliach.
I was taught that I cannot eat like other people.  How many times are you at a dinner and everyone is taking a luscious looking dessert?  How can I turn that down? I have to taste it.  I’ll never get the chance again.  (And then a lovely women with a svelt figure says “no thanks”!  How did she do that?  I have never been able to do that.)  Tomorrow I’ll say no.  Tomorrow I won’t eat like that, where I can’t breathe. Tomorrow I’ll start, exercising, eating only raw foods, no carbs, never desserts, never drink alcohol, try Slim Fast, Weight Watchers or some other group or diet plan, South Beach,   take pills, eat only low-fat foods, or , I know I'll have Gastric Bypass surgery!  Yeah that's the ticket! etcetera,  etcetera, etcetera…You know the drill.  And on and on it goes…for decades.  

And the reason is because I think that once I lose some weight (or all the weight I want to lose) I can go back to the way I was eating.  I think I now have some control. I can do it myself. But I cannot.  Because if I do I will go back to the way I was, obese.

So I am committed to following the food plan that works for me.  Everyone is different.  Finding the right food plan isn’t hard. What is hard is sticking to it.  Now how are you gonna do that?  That is THE question

For me my shaliach led me to OA- Overeaters Anonymous.  I was willing to try it because nothing else worked for me.  OA is composed of a “fellowship” that knows you and your issues and your challenges because they have been there, done that.  And they HAVE overcome.  It is not for people who need to lose 10 -15 pounds,  although if food is an issue for you no matter what you weigh,  whether you are an overeater or anorexic or bulimic you might check it out.  If you attend a meeting, (which I highly recommend) and there are meetings literally all over the world, you will be amazed at the many miracles. I lost 90 pounds and the same story is repeated by 40 people in the room, I lost 50 pounds, I lost 125 pounds, I lost 60 pounds. I am no longer Type 2 diabetic. I’m off insulin.  I’m off high blood pressure meds completely. I gained 14 pounds ( from a former anorexic). It is most inspiring. There are also frum groups too.
So when you get so disgusted you would be willing to turn it over to Hashem and say You help me!  And He does.  He always does. 
Check out OA.  It works if you are sincere in your wish.   We say “I came for the vanity and I stayed for the sanity.” 

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Calling All "Useful Idiots!"

Maritime Martyrs ? 
 The humanitarian crisis in Gaza is mostly hype and hoax for all the “Useful Idiots” all over the world. Watch this and listen up! And let “all the poisons that lurk in the mud hatch out!”